(((chocolatelover))) Perhaps you needed to reach that point, of surrendering it all before you could begin to rebuild on the new foundation? To free up our strife to heal, give it all up, "quit" for a moment almost seems a requirement to be able to see and sense a better path?

There is good psychology in that, or a form of that. It made no sense to me until I experienced it. I wish you well on your new journey.

I am about to endeavor on my expressed desire to show somehow, that when trauma affects us, it also affects our faith, our senses of serenity and feelings of closeness of our God or higher power as it may be. Just yesterday I reaffirmed this goal, to begin almost immediately. I'm sure you and many here will have good input for me, as it is for our own healing...those members of us who suffer PTSD.