My boyfriend just left a little while ago for a weekend trip (he'll be back Monday), but that might be a good thing right now. It's not, for a whole lot of reasons (if you know about my OCD, living in trash, having too many cats, boyfriend hardly ever around, etc., you'll know what I'm talking about), but in the past two or three weeks, I've gotten in a mood where I don't want to go out, or get dressed and live life, for the most part. I just spent the last four days (the most, so far) inside, either sleeping or messing on my phone. I eat, too, but I have to wait until my boyfriend brings dinner, which is just a sandwich (usually the same one, only 220 calories), and later I also have two yogurts and some chocolates. It's not much, and I suspect part of the weakness I feel is because I'm not eating enough or healthy enough. That's why I think maybe it's good I have to go out all this weekend. I hope I don't go back to staying home when my boyfriend gets back, but I suspect I will.

I dread having to get up, get dressed and everything, and I'm having some anxiety about the weekend (like, what if I forget to buy something I need, or something that causes problems with my OCD happens, etc.), which is one reason I hate when my boyfriend goes away.

My sleeping hours are all messed up, but I don't just mean they're backwards, sleeping all day, up all night. I sleep for a few hours, wake up and feel lousy, so I use the bathroom and come back to sit up and watch videos and read posts on social media for a couple hours or a few, then back to sleep for a few hours, and it keeps repeating.

I'm on a new dosage of Paxil, but this started before the increase. I'm wondering if I should call my psychiatrist about it. What do you think?