OMG i know the fake thing!!! i hate having to be something and smile and yet i do it so good!! ugghhh, without the fake me, i sometimes feel there is no me...yet i hear so many conflicting things about myself...i dunno...

((((((((((((((((((((sing))))))))))))))))))))) sometimes your body or mind cares for itself and protects itself in ways we dun understand...i hope you have more and more moments of clarity like that until it is the moments of unrest and unpeace become uncommon you are able to deal with them in a way that doesnt tear you apart...if that makes sense...ughh, melanie