I think you just answered your own question, bchlyn. Yeah, it's time to make a phone call to your T, Honey ... it's time to let someone help you if you're not strong enough right now. I hope things will look brighter after you do ... and I hope you'll keep us posted?

BTW, have you read the thread "Reasons not to ..." here at the top of the SI forum? One thing really stood out for me when I read it ... "I think I'll show them, but when you really think about it, does it make sense that you were hurt so now you should be hurt more?" Do you really want the bas$#@d who abused you to WIN? I know you don't!

If you think I can help you, please do NOT hesitate to PM me! I won't judge you and I don't run. (((((Bchlyn)))))

I'm really trying to be a GoodMama