Sorry this is so long!! Thanks if you read it all the way through
So I've been seeing my therapist for almost 8 months now and she's always extremely friendly and seems concerned for me but I've begun to think she's not all that nice. There are some instances that I've been caught off guard and I'm not sure if I'm just taking these the wrong way and everyone's therapist is like this or if mines actually a bad therapist.
1. Without my knowledge she has told my GP about my eating disorder and other things, and has yet to bring it up to me in therapy (it's been several sessions, my GP was the one to tell me and asked my permission to relay something back to her)
2. She's cut sessions short/started late and asks the same questions every time I go as if she doesn't remember certain details. I'm talking more about BIG details not super specific things, things she should be able to remember after all of this time.
3. I don't get the feeling that she validates my thoughts and moods, and says that I need to "white knuckle it" through the harder things. She says she can't do very much or she doesn't know what things would motivate me to feel less depressed/ take care of myself since she isn't me.
4. She hasn't been very encouraging, at least it seems that way. She's said that it's all on me and I have to make the changes. That makes sense to me, but the way she words it brings me down even more.
She's never been angry or anything towards me and says all of these things in a kind tone and often a smile, but I don't get the feeling of support from her especially in comparison to my amazing GP. I'm at a point where I'm not sure if I trust her and if it's worth my time to see her or not
What do you all think about this?
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