Thank you so much. I did talk to her and I was truthful about what I did, and I guess I realize how much she cares about me. i told her about how I feel annoying and everything and she assured me I'm not and she'd rather have me alive and complaining to her than dead and her not having a chance to help me. Also, I wasn't really abused.. I was sexually assaulted, almost raped, but i guess that's the same thing. it just wasn't anything chronic or anything.