Thanks Rupunzel.... you are so right.... faith is what sustains my will to recover. Staying emersed in God's greatness and filled with God's love is life sustaining. Just owning it without understanding it is the miracle of salvation.

I agree.... despair is not from God and while God may be able to carry us through the despair it is by our choices that we are empowered to battle it round after round with God as our strength and foundation.

That is a good reminder Rupunzel.... none have suffered as Jesus suffered for us. It is comforting to have him by my side to show me the way. Especially when I'm lost in the pain and have no strength of my own. The footsteps of the One carrying me through. How blessed are we who believe and see and know the fullness of his love. The unselfish example of faith and trust and divine hope.