I wish I had answers, I'm pretty much dealing with the same thing except I do not and never really have been able to bond with these professionals.....the trust just isn't there to allow it. I've been hurt so many times.....people can be so ugly and I don't understand why. I try to understand people, to give them the benefit of the doubt but I'm burned every time. There are good people out there, I know there are but I struggle to find them. There are good doctors out there, but not many. I'm sorry you struggle.....I wish there was a solution to this. Maybe there is.....maybe the trick is to just keep trying. (((Hugs)))