I've been thinking about this lately and I sometimes wonder would it have been better if I was born with these problems out the gate, instead of tasting normality or hell dare I say happiness then to have it all snatched away with very little hope of feeling that feeling again.... I still cling to the hope of somehow feeling normal again but going through this hellish pain clouds the vision of a better tomorrow. Anyways just know I feel your pain and hope we can live in the eye of the storm where it's calm forever knowing what lies on the outter brim. Hugs