Depression and anger hit me really hard right after Christmas.....even before everyone left. I feel so unappreciated, used up and angry at many members of my family. I get so tired of them criticizing me or just not paying any attention to me. I don't mean in the sense of their not listening to me but rather it feels like they don't notice me or talk to me. I see mind games going on and don't know why some of them do that crap.

I'm worn out! I need a vacation with someone who gives a rip......right now I feel like I would have trouble finding that person. I can't afford a vacation, anyway.

I hope these feelings passes soon because I was doing so well before these darn holidays hit. Can I skip them next year? What would my family say? Right now I don't care.

Thanks for listening to me ramble about the depression that is making me miserable at the moment. I would advise myself and anyone else to do something nice for myself.....talk positively to myself....get interested in something.....and etc. Those things aren't working for me yet!!! Maybe this rant will help.