Yes, I have lost friends too. Mostly due to anger or speaking up for my rights as a person, for instance that I don't like to be teased. One person who was picking on me and teasing me a lot, became an enemy when I mentioned that I was not in the mood to be teased one day. Because we all got a lecture about how a person has the right not to be teased (at the Senior Center where I work) I was blamed for this. So, someone who really was not being nice to me, became my enemy that day and has been since. As I look back on it, he never was a friend. He was mean, and has become more mean as time has gone on. He has lost other friends too. Someone else besides myself does not like being teased and picked on either!

So sometimes you "lose" a "friend" who never really was a friend.

Then I lost one friend who really was a good friend, a caring friend, because I got angry at her for breaking a promise on me. She was unable to keep the promise and I understand that now, but she has never allowed me back into her life again, even though I apologized. Sometimes that is just the way it goes when I have emotions I cannot control. It is part of this mental illness, unfortunately.

What to do about it is to make a lot of friends, so that if you lose one you still have plenty of others. Have friends in different places, like church, the gym, a social club, etc. If you lose one in one place, you still have others in other places. Also, do apologize when you know you have done something for which you need to do so. Apologies go a long way sometimes, other times folks cannot forgive you.