OK, I'm a sensitive guy. Back in the '70s, that was the ideal, everybody loved the sensitive guy. We went out of style in the '80s it seems, and never made a comeback.
No matter, I'm still sensitive, and I can be emotional, though I try to hide it because, well, it's not what people want anymore. I cry at movies. even the ones I've seen before. Even some of the safety videos at work, surrounded by other men, will bring tears to my eyes if they show someone who's been hurt or whatever. I have to quickly dry my eyes before the lights come up so nobody knows.
So now, I'm in the middle of a very difficult time for me. My girlfriend is locked in a psych ward and thinks we're all out to harm her. Her poor daughter, who is like a daughter to me, is very hurt and resentful, and keeps it bottled up inside. I'm trying to talk her into getting help dealing with her anger and emotional issues. I'm extremely worried for both of them. When I say extremely, I mean it, there's a lump of dread in my stomach constantly. I try to eat and can't finish a meal, it seems tasteless, and i'm never really hungry. At work, I find myself staring into space, just letting the worry wash over me, not good I know, but there it is. Nighttime is the worst, there's nothing else to think about but these 2 people I love so much. I've never felt emotions this strong, I'm not trying to be dramatic, I'm just overwhelmed with emotion. I feel like I need to try to express them, but my girlfriend doesn't understand most of my words, and I'm afraid her daughter will think I'm losing it too.
Why do I feel things so much?