I've realised I've held onto this anger that I was never able to express to my mom - she'd get angry if I did and even hurt me.. So I started taking it out on myself because I felt it needed some place to go. But now I've realised I'm making myself ill taking it out on myself - so I'm letting it go.. I've been scared to as it has felt like a part of who I am! But it's just been something I've done, and that I never should have had to do.. Letting it go now feels like a relief