99fairies, you and I have so much in common down to the traveling, sometimes not leaving the house (I had agoraphobia for many years), the children going to school (my 18 year old daughter just moved 2 hours away to attend college .... I have a locator on her phone), and difference in your appearance bothering you. Just wanted you to know you're not alone. I'm taking the empty nest one day at a time and trying to rediscover myself. Partially successful. Sending big hugs.