you know... i hate to tell you this, but you won't ever be able to go back to what things were before you ever started. Once insight is planted it grows on its own as well as in therapy. i had that happen... ditched by the person who started me on this road. My way of thinking had changed and there was no stopping it. You will now discover feelings and thoughts and memories on your own. These things you fear may come to the surface anyway.

that isn't a call to stay in therapy, just telling you my experience... it's why i never tell someone to start therapy.. i tell them they need to want to.