I have started a mixed cycle as well. started getting suicidal again last week sobbing high anxiety, irritable. Now this week I am starting to get hypomanic. I have been awake for over 40 hours. I am hoping the sand man is visiting tonight. I have already started doing stupid things! Tonight I played chicken with a car to get by a really slow truck. The disturbing thing is I did not care, I was not afraid at all. I do feel bad putting others lives in danger. It was an act first think later moment. i have already done about a thousand worth of monetary damage with spontaneous travel and shopping sprees. So that is what my mixes or rapid cycling looks like this time. Oh and I usually feel euphoric. I have not this time. Sorry you are going through this too. Mixed episodes suck!