I have had a bunch of extra situational stress in my life and I thought I had finally gotten out of the depression if put me into. Usually I am pretty stable and go long periods between episodes but there I am looking at the mess my apartment became while I was depressed, knowing I am moving next week, and wondering if I would be best off to just pull an all-nighter and just clean and pack until I have to go to work tomorrow.

I have been staring at the stuff for hours just to overwhelmed to know where to start. Normally me wanting to stay up all night just for a day or two wouldn't worry me so much but I have been selling or throwing away almost everything I own and today while I was alone at work the voices came back for a little while.

There is just so much going on right now in my life I don't have time to not be stable. My **** needs to get in order now so that I have a chance of actually achieving the piles of responsibilities I have put on myself. I know there probably isn't much on here I could say I am doing that at least a few people haven't dons the same thing but I am just embarrassed with the way I am running my life right now. I am out of local friends to talk to about this.

Everything is just a mess and I need to get a hold of things. I am taking my psych meds like I am supposed to, I have been trying to keep on a normal sleep schedule but failing miserably. Part of me thinks if I just put enough work into my apartment tonight and make a big dent in the packing tomorrow I will feel better but the other part of me is pretty sure that is the crazy talking.