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Originally Posted by Trace14
Ending sessions is hard, even when you know it's the right thing to do. Did you talk to the T about why and that you were not sure how you felt about it? Sounds like the T is trying to wean you away as opposed to just saying we are done, have to respect that. Does it have anything to do with insurance?  |
Yes, I think you are right. I fund myself so it's not due to insurance.
I guess it's just that I've been seeing T for so long (7 years) and although I know it wasn't ever meant to be forever, part of me was putting my head in the sand about ending. I have wanted to quit many times, but T has persuaded me to stay, now it's coming from T, it just feels different.
I'm not sure I can do the weaning off. Part of me has already left. My father had a mental illness and I frequently felt ignored / unseen as a child. I guess it's maybe those things being triggered. My self preservation stuff kicking in. But it also means, that I can't talk to my T about it. I know I will go to the next session pretending.
However, ultimately I know I am a tough cookie, have been through worse. So it will all be ok in the end.
How are you doing?