Yes, I know about lull. I have been there at times in my life. Right now I'm trying to deal with the darkest depression that I Have ever been through, certainly the longest. Being in the "void" is like balancing on a highwire. One wrong step and you're gone and praying that the safety net of the meds holds. I am still struggling with coming to terms with the way i am. It's like happy feelings frighten me as much as the depression does.

And i know how you feel about not posting much. I read almost every post here but am simply at a loss for words to comfort anyone when I can't even comfort myself. I feel for everyone here. I know that my reply doesn't help but I just wanted you to know that I understand what you're saying.

Take care.