I think you are crying for help. Nothing wrong with that. Again, I do feel for you. Been there and also was looking for help. I even started a group in my area of people who said they were all looking for the same thing.. help. But, they lied. They weren't really looking for the same thing I was. And, in the end, no one really helped. Except for 1 friend who is just an amazing friend and I won't forget but, really her help was just like a little help.

I don't think you need therapy. It does suck to be alone and poor and talking about that I don't think changes things. Though I think you could work on your patience.

Very funny and true. Maybe this will help though. A couple of years ago I got me a BMW. I LOVED that car. It was the dream to drive around in the BMW and see the envy. Men were way more interested in talking to me (but they really were in love with the car) But, I got pulled over more by cops.. if anything went wrong with it... the bill was 1k, and the gas billl -- likes. Never mind how bad it was on the snow. So got it out of my system and traded it in for a fiesta and now I can't really imagine buying a status car again.