Sometimes I wish I did feel that way (sexual) towards my t. He is a very good looking man and I would probably understand why I had the feeling I had. I think I would also be able to maintain some control of myself

But, my feelings are ALL about wanting a daddy, I know I try to manipulate him into situations where he will TELL me what to do or protect me. I don't seem to be able to maintain contol over this behavior. When he denies me this, I feel extremely rejected and denied. Chances are, if I were dealing with the sexual transference issues, I would probably be just as bad and manipulative. I'm a big mess. What can I say?