Maryoochi--

How long ago was it?

I was lucky. I received plenty of support.

I was deeply ashamed of what I had done for about two years (my attempt was 2 and a half years ago). I have forgiven myself. Am not ashamed to talk about it but my T has advised me to be careful about "sharing." I think she was surprised when I told her what I was sharing on this forum. I told her my userid because I have limited time with her and it was easier to just show her some of my posts in order to explain my anxieties/fears. Using the example of a few other people on this forum--I think trying to be truthful and open about my difficulties is, hopefully, helping me face up to my problems. Though I do feel like I need to be careful about speaking about others.

My problems have NOT gone away. I only understand them better. I have only made small steps towards my life goals (they involve relationships and finances). When I am really upset, I vent on this forum. I have not had SI in a while. Perhaps venting has helped me not default to SI--for me, SI was a way to avoid my problems. There are so many problems in life.

Now I am going to stop venting for the day and get to work. Even when I am depressed--it is important to me to feel productive in some way. Rest is important too but being on social media for to long is not conducive to good sleep IMO.

Welcome and hugs,
Hoping