I think I would have liked for him to make some kind of nonverbal gesture showing that the news saddened him--something indicating that he gives a crap about me and is sad that my depression has gotten this bad. Him taking it in stride supports my really-difficult-to-uproot belief that my suffering doesn't matter, that there are lots n lots of people out there who have it worse than me (which is true), and that depression = me being a lazy and ungrateful piece of crap. (And that belief just makes me wanna be dead.)

(I get that this isn't necessarily what he was communicating by being matter-of-fact--he made zero explicit statements to this effect--but this is how the lens of my depression warps the input into my brain. I know better than to believe this... but it's hard to, like, use my cognitive brain to change the way I feel.)