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nonightowl · Sep 02, 2017, 01:49 PM

Yes, I think it's excessive.

Enough already.

Over the past year or so, I lost a good friend suddenly. Then, about 6 months after that, I lost my mom. My friend was my age, and they didn't know the cause of his sudden death.

I also lost a few good neighbors: Some to passing away, some to moving away.

I've been dropped by two "friends" suddenly, one I just knew online. The first real life "friend" abruptly stopped e-mailing/texting/talking to me about a year ago. This takes guts, because I still run into him at the stupid senior center where he (of course) doesn't acknowledge me anymore. WTF??? A few women I discussed it with think he has a bruised ego because maybe he was interested in more than being buddies. But he didn't get his way, so it's the highway. What is this? High school?

My online friend told me she doesn't want to talk to me anymore because she thought some things I said about the above jerk was mean. Yeah, it was mean but honest. I have a mean streak for people who deserve it. We humans have a dark side, look at the atrocities committed over the thousands of years of humans vs. humans.

It's not all unicorns and rainbows like she wants. Still, after a year of e-mailing each other, she said goodbye just like that. She thinks what I SAID is mean? "Real" meaness is someone beating up a person for looking different. And saying mean things is not the same thing as BEING mean or mean behavior.

People who know me better than her know I'm not a mean person even if I said something mean.

In early 2014, my best friend was forced to move 2,000 miles away to another state cause he lost his job, then of course his apartment. He would have been homeless, so he had to go back to his hometown. I miss him every second of every day, even with regular e-mails.

I also miss his cats, which were/are "my babies" too.

I could go on and on, but I have a time limit on the computer. Anyway, in a nutshell, I've had multiple losses over the past few years. Life keeps kicking me in the ***, and I don't see a light at the end of this tunnel I've been in for YEARS now.

I thought I made a few new friends, but unless I contact THEM, I don't interact with them. A phone call would be nice once in awhile, without it being a call to return MY CALL.

Even my therapist said it's not fair that so many bad things keep happening to a good person.

Job loss, friend loss, etc. Car trouble, minor health problems, estranged family (what little I have left), one & only sibling who won't even speak to me, etc. etc. etc.

Even when I ordered some coffee pods over the phone, they screwed up MY order when MILLIONS of people order online or over the phone with no trouble. They sent me more than what I ordered, charging me for it as well.

And "little" things like being in the computer room at the senior center...and "my" computer is the only one not working right. Nobody else is getting error messages.

Enough ranting for now....