I am not punishing her, i said time and time again it is completely my issue. i never gave her crap for it, i do recognize it is a 100% my issue.. she was not traumatized by that, i mean she still stayed with him .... DO NOT THINK I'M BLAMING HER FOR ANYTHING
also if she did do somethings, or if she liked that to happen to her, i wouldn't have cared, it's fine if she likes it, i wouldnt have been in a serious relationship with her to begin with... everyone got a past

Open Eyes thanks alot, that's what I keep saying to myself too whenever i find myself asking " is this normal for someone at this age?" i say well you dont know where he come from, and it did happen, whether it's normal or not, it happened, what difference would it make if it's normal or not ..
i guess i'm just jealous that i didn't have a colorful past and so im taking it out on me

could it be a matter that i am jealous ? I would never do such a thing to a girl, unless im totally convinced that the moment is right and we are beyond kissing...

anyone else wana tell me if this is common/normal from guys at 15 ?? do they ever realize wow what a stupid boy i was ?