So for the last seven years I have been traveling around the USA, Europe, Africa and now I am in India.

I have had nothing but traumatic events since my major one in 2010.
I cannot believe the intense complicated drama and trauma I continue to experience. I have no clue where I will be a day from now or a week, month or year from now or in what condition I will be in.

I am sober and that is good. At least I have the sense to stay off drugs and alcohol.

So I just some how manage in this constant state of fight or flight mostly...
Sometimes I have brief interludes of calmness. but most of the time I am on this epic bewildering journey through the labyrinth of the Earth.

I live off a very modest monthly pension. I have always had a good place to stay except a brief time of running amok in a manic episode in the streets of a major US city back in 2010...right after the big trauma.

Still I come close often to starving and being homeless.

I am trying hard to settle down. Wish me luck. Today was very traumatic.
Somehow today's trauma made me realize some things.
I realized that I am indeed in a constant state of trauma.

Other than that I am constantly reading and learning and trying to write.
I have succeeded in writing some good short things, but it has been hard to focus on major projects. I used to be a teacher and a pro musician.

Now I am involved in a bewildering domestic situation with a wonderful Indian woman and her 2 wonderful kids...oh ya...and the 20 something cousin man.

So I am in this state and I am dealing with a rather "different" culture.
The culture shock in itself would challenge the sanity of any sane person.

ok...I feel a bit better after sharing my situation.

I hope you all are having a peaceful Saturday. It is 1:35 in the morning now and except for you all here I really feel alone in this world.

Thanks just for being here <3