I'm glad you're here and that you feel safe. I find that the people here get me and my illness in a way that the outside world doesn't. I feel pretty safe here and able to open up in a way that I can't outside this site.
I'm sorry you're having a tough time. Has all this travel been painful for/to you or have you had some wonderful adventures as well? I envy you your travel. I wish I had the courage to do what you're doing.
Sending big hugs.