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Old Sep 02, 2017, 03:39 PM
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Originally Posted by Shazerac View Post
sorry your hurting.

Maybe you don't need the rough T? If you are crying before, during and after. That's pretty stressful. Are you sure this is what you need at this time? May I ask why you fired the T that you kind of liked?
He cancelled two appointments, both within 2 weeks after discharge. I needed him and he wasn't there. He also wasn't active enough in my therapy most of the time. He just listened. I saw him for months and got nowhere.
My new, current therapist, in my first session said "stop being an a-hole to yourself. It's making you miserable." I needed to hear that from somewhere, even though it sounds like an obvious thing. I never had. There was another therapist I had in the same hospital back in December (suicidal big time, was staring at open pills and grabbed phone instead. Grateful they answered). That guy had the whole group in tears because of his harshness, except me. It was what I needed and got me on "the path." I need activeness, harsh il being encouraged because I'm not going to consider "lazy" to get the job done.