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Originally Posted by SalingerEsme
I have problems like this too, suddenly becoming suspicious of why my T asked me a question or worried that his family is socializing with my sibling's family etc. It is an issue of trust and not the greatest attachment skills stemming from trauma history. I used to react to these feelings strongly, but over time I have learned to observe them and be either curious about them, or let them go like as if they were a river. That feeling of paranoia is so persuasive and poisons the day. Sorry you are struggling with it. I would hate the situation you describe, and unless they are both ultra-professional, they might talk about you. Hopefully they do it with affection. You could tell your new T the deal, and stress you want your confidential repeated so you can trust? You could greet your old T, say hello etc so it lessens the flinch factor?
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What a beautiful way of putting it, SalingerEsme

Letting the toxic thoughts flow away, down the river...
I'm so sorry to hear that you're familiar with the struggle of paranoia and trust issues

Though it's reassuring to meet someone who can relate. I perfectly understand everything you're saying, paranoid thoughts are poisonous beyond rational thought - you seem to be a lot better at dealing with this than me with your coping mechanisms as I'm still in the ''reacting to them strongly'' phase. It feels borderline impossible to be curious without getting into a panic so respect to you!!