Thank eveyone.

I am just trying to stay a float and yes ride the wave.

I see my Pdoc Tuesday.. second visit, Shes just meds only but I will fill her in on whats happened in the last 5 weeks, I do wish I could find a T ... I am trying to somehow fit even a few visits in, Maybe thats all I need to unload the rage I feel.

I am currently beating myself up often because I think " Its been 5 weeks since she did that hellish thing in my home.. Time to get the hell over it" I just cant do it, Im stuck in the "rage, how dare you stage" Ugh Ugh Ugh

I know to move on I do not need to forgive her .. I just need to get the nightmares out of my life, They are just Vivid and its everynight along with the never ending one about my uncle,,, Dont need to explain that hellish one.

All this support is helping me. Its nice to know people truly care