Half-past 2 at night, today I had an impulse to try my sort of hobby again, which is game development, which I had to abandon due to obsessiveness and perfectionism, essentially. I looked at a project which I gave up on previously, and thought I made some headway, but sort of got stuck again, and I can't fall asleep because I got up late, and I hate my hands which is related to my skin-picking problem, but more importantly, that gamedev project has been stuck in my head, to the point that I don't even know if I care about it, which is really just compounding my misery. And I'm finding it really hard to focus on anything else or get interested in so as to be able to drift to sleep. I hope posting this and reaching out to virtual people will add some perspective or something.