Starting thinking a out some of these ideas...

Tbought of giving up because no matter how hard i try to look at this differently, i cant choose not to feel this way. The consensus seems to be that we choose our pain. I chose to do therapy but had no idea the end would affect me this way. Having a hard time seeing how im not taking responsibility, my emotions that came out of therapy. If i could go back in time, id choose never to do this. I beat myself up enough for making myself vulnerable, but i thought that is what i was supposed to do. I let the walls down when i should have left them intact, but that part was encouraged. Not sure whu between the 2 of us, e everything is my fault.