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Originally Posted by SoupDragon
"I'm not as strong as I thought I was. I needed help to work through this"
It's interesting that we see this from different perspectives. Initially, I thought I was weak, but I have survived, so feel there was an inner strength that I previously wasn't aware of. Also I never ask for help, try to be self-sufficient, so actually to recognise that I needed help and to access it, I also see as positive. Taking that risk to trust, despite everything.
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For me I don't know if it was trust so much as a resource for me to fix things still. I kind of had an ah ha moment a little while ago and why I can't talk f2f with people like a T. Goes back to childhood and being told to not speak of things going on at home. Because if others knew they would take me away, or even worse get my mom and I killed by my father. Maybe that's why it's easier to write and edit my thoughts than to speak freely.
