Its about 2 in the morning on saturday. Around 5 this evening my brother, erica and tres will be leaving and moving to Illinois.

I've spent the last few days doing nothing but crying. My eyes are so swollen. I know its the right and the best thing for my nephew. I'm just mad. Mad that they have to move away and so far.

Everyone, family and friends have done the same thing. They've all moved away. I have no friends down here now. And the only family is my parents. I feel so alone.

I wrote my nephew a letter and i put it in his bag. Sometime tomorrow while he's on the road, he'll come across the letter. I just hope i dont upset him in the letter. I know already he is feeling the homesickness coming on. He's being the tuff guy and acting like everything is so cool.

I'm worried about him. I want him to find some friends. I want him to enjoy school and like his teachers. I just want him to be happy and not worry about things. I want him to be a kid and have fun.

Dont know wether i'll be able to sleep tonite or not.