Thank you both very much. I know we're all different and no one really fits in a "box" with diagnosis, because we're individuals.

HD7970ghz, yes; though there are some days I feel like I "rapidly cycle" too , meaning euphoria coupled with agitation, along with "ok" and detrimental thoughts.
Then there's been times the euphoric mood can last a bit.
Similar to my depression in a way, except on the other spectrum.
I have issues remembering everything, but can recall that I am a different "me" at times.
My euphoric moods I can feel "awesome" , maybe even a bit delusional (magical or really "happy" in awe moments) and maybe a bit narcissistic (or what I feel is narcissistic)... I'm rarely, if ever, with "I'm prefect" because I'm human (so not completely full of myself ).
But I'm not like that all the time.
Other times I struggle with worth, deserving, love, and feelings in general.. and I've had time periods where I'm ok (even maybe to the point of "nothing is wrong with me").


I left a message to my T about this, but it was vague. I see t with in the following week. I know we talked one time on external things and feeling uplifted, instead of internal, but even I'm confused with myself on this.

Have a family history of bipolar, and the previous t/doc I was in therapy with dx bipolar with possibly BPD traits, and mentioned PTSD. Which , I some what dismissed the bipolar due to I felt I was never manic like some. I had quit therapy back then, but am back in therapy due to some events that occurred.

I went reading out there in the world and, I was having issues understanding if the euphoric moods were a traitof BPD and bipolar, or one or the other. when reading one of the articles it mentioned BPD not having elevated moods, which confused me even more because I thought BPD was an extreme of moods, like HD7970ghz mentions.

Current T that I've been seeing, is a T that sees BPD traits, don't think she's dismissed any previous dx's but in the end : Why I ask is because I just want to be sure to be focusing and working on a better life and I'm confused with this..

As I've grown, I understand more how I have BPD traits but also still worry about bipolar.

I question diagnosis, but yet realize I do have traits. And I realize it does me no good to dismiss them.

Reminding myself to take one thing at a time, and that if I help parts of me that need assistance, over all that helps me in general. And that there, helps out so much with everything.
I'm a strong believer that if one helps themselves to be better, it does help the others around them.

Thanks for letting me reach out. Sorry if this is a bit much...