Was slightly up in the AM yesterday. Leveled out to normal. Got some school work done. I wish I had done more though because I'm back to feeling like **** today.

Had a horrible dream, the kind I get when I'm unwell. So I woke up very anxious. It has morphed into depression. I feel like I can hardly move. I told my son I'd take him to see a movie later but I'm really going to have to force myself.

i feel like hurting myself. Im not going to but it's haunting me. I'm trying to distract t myself with music. I have no energy to get off the couch to do something to distract myself.

I have to get my son lunch. I wish my husband were still alive. I need help.