I don't think anyone has to
earn compassion... at least, I've never felt that way about those I give it to. IMO, they
can loose it, though.
You have my compasion and my love. I just can't understand why you would want to hurt yourself, but hey, I haven't walked in your moccosins.
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Psalm 119:105 Thy word is a lamp unto my feet, and a light unto my path.