I just moved into college a week ago. I thought it was a chance for me to start over and feel happier.
While moving in, I felt very. Indifferent. Even when I said goodbye to my parents and they drove away, I felt indifferent. My roommate is nice, but doesn't really speak much so it's awkward. I tend to avoid going to the dorm much. Either avoiding her, or because I spent my whole life isolated in my house and wanted to try something new?
I met some new people while going out and stuff.. they're nice. However, I still feel like I'm an annoyance to them. I thought that part of me would change but I guess it's hard. I think my main concern is friends since I've never had any my whole life, and wanna change that, but maybe my personality is too weird and awkward. I hate it. I wish I could reach out more, but letting people in scares me.
I still get the stress of not knowing what I want to do. I know it's exaggerant, but it makes me feel like I don't have a life purpose... I'm talentless.
Overall, I've done a lot more in the past week than I ever have in months living in this house (I'm home for the weekend). I didn't miss home at all. I can't say I'm happier because my emotions are still dulled, and I still feel.. left out in life, ya know? Hope that makes sense. But yeah. This was just a life update.

Update:
Someone wrote "Its been years since i really enjoyed..well anything. I can sit down and like doing something, tv, books, chores, walking the dog, or just going for a run. I am capable of getting up and doing it all. I do what needs to be done. I like everything yet I like nothing. I feel indifferent about everything i do. To include work and everyday chores. I find myself crying over everything. I feel stupid for not knowing why i constantly feel ‘not normal”. Lately i feel like i am making it all up in my head. Its like i so desperately want some one to give me an answer for everything that I am making it all up." That there is really nothing wrong with me and everyone feels like this." This is exactly how I feel daily. I couldn't say it better.