Hello, Desiree2006 It sounds like you're going through a rough time, at the moment. As for the patience, I truly believe this!! It's not going to be easy for anyone on this journey. We're all in on this together Imagine losing weight -- you can't just try one diet for one week and expect a massive change. It takes a while before things change. You must not give up hope

What you say about the grocery store, shopping and dreading a shower, I understand all too much!! It's getting to the point where I don't want to eat which is really unusual for me. I've stopped eating large quantities of food in meals, not because I don't want to, but because my appetite has almost completely disappeared. When hungry, I'm provided with food but actually eating feels miserable and tedious and then I feel like I'm going to be sick.

A few years ago when I was on anti-depressants, I experienced a lot of hunger as a side affect (I think) so I was constantly eating. I don't take any meds anymore simply because they don't seem to work for me. Sometimes I find it easy to eat as a pass time but doing that worsens my mood and I truly can't be bothered. It feels like colossal laziness, which it might be, but it's something that's totally hit me like a ton of bricks having formerly been quite active.

As for coping/dealing with things, I really found hiking to be of great benefit!! I can't recommend it enough! This used to be something I did every day to pre-occupy my mind from everything BUT I can't hike ATM. I suggest you try it, particularly on a nice day at a quiet time Perhaps in the morning during sunrise or in the evening during the sunset? The colours in the sky are so beautiful, they alone could potentially bring some tranquility