I hate to post this.

I wish I could start my life over ... at least from age 18

I was old enough to walk out then..

Of course I can't, that's "madness"

Why was I so "immature" (I know some of the reasons .. )

I feel like ......

I'm sitting here wondering whether to press "send"

I wish I was gone.

Maybe I should be gone.

I've felt like this for too long

I wish I had inspiring words, maybe then I would be "worth" something

Even if I ever could be a therapist, would I help people? I would hate to hurt even one person ... I'm only adding this because of something a friend suggested ... about me becoming a therapist.

Even if I was "smart" enough, could I be "stable" enough

I doubt it

So I'm "worthless"