You're caught in the ultimate trap of all ED's....They make you believe that you are in total control while the rest of your life throws hard punches at every turn. The truth is that once you start an ED's you are no longer in control. It fools the brain. The only way to get the real control back is to fight the ED's. Go to a T. Talk out the other pressures that are bothering you. Find other ways to deal.
Good Luck!
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