Ugh, I've let my emotions get the better of me during a heated situation and I complained about the most important people in my life who I cherish dearly. I don't know what or who I'd be without them. SO - when I offload a bunch of negative mess, I feel so guilty for going behind their backs after everything we've been through.

These are the only people I have besides my therapist and grandparents who I rarely see. I feel so disappointed. The thing is, they don't make things easy because they can be so vicious which doesn't help me, my paranoia, my self-improvement OR my depression.