I dont understand why anyone would do that to somebody. Even if he didn't feel kindness for me when i quit, why couldnt he have just said something, made anything up, rather than go out of his way like that. It just seems unnecessarily cruel, leaving me to reflect on why i dont deserve kindness. No matter what i tell myself, i cant not think its because i dont matter as a person.

Why make things 10 times worse for someone already in hardship. I feel the ending would have been somewhat tolerable if not for that. Thinking back, our whole therapy seemed that way. My needing basic things, like acceptance, and him purposely not giving me anything i needed. In any other realm of life, i would have walked away without hesitation .

Its like i wasnt allowed to have any agency, like quitting (even though i really didnt have a choice), because he had to be in control of everything . When i tried to use my agency, i got hurt over and over. He always has to make sure im powerless. Sounds ridiculous but that is how it seems.