I've had it since I was about 14, like my agoraphobia -- I'd stay home from school and stay up all night because there was no school the next day (terrible logic!!) which meant I had to preoccupy myself. I started browsing the internet and came across true crime stories which fed my curiosity AND the anxiety. It was just crime story after crime story, unfortunately leading me into a panic state. I think this actually came before the agoraphobia.

Since leaving school last year, I haven't got any routine. I think the lack of routine is partially to blame. I don't need to wake up early at 6/7am for anything tomorrow so it just leaves me totally independent.

The security advice is great!! I'll definitely see what we can do about this. We had an alarm and a panic button in our old house which made me feel extremely safe during the day and at night. I'll see about getting one of these as bolts just won't do it. Thanks