Hi, everyone,

I'm too tired to reply at length, but I'd like to thank you for your thoughts and kind words. Today was an especially bad day, so I appreciate it. Thank you.

I'm definitely trying to get help, by the way (though part of me feels I'm lazy and don't really deserve it). I actually have an appointment with my psychiatrist on Tuesday, so here's hoping we can figure things out, then. I'm really starting to wonder if I'll ever be normal, or if this is the new 'normal', however. And Tuesday seems so very far away. I hate to be dramatic, but some times I wonder if I'll make it till then. Sigh.