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Originally Posted by starrysky
Why do you feel like an annoyance to the people you hung out with? I do want to say, if you have been isolated for a while, with no friends, and feel bad about yourself, it might take some time to figure out who you want to hang out with, and who makes you feel good (who you can call a true friend). If you make a mistake in that department, it's ok. Keep trying. Mistakes mean you are learning and trying.
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I guess it's just that I have trouble interacting with others and I guess my isolation does play a role in that. I tend go too far with things, I start hating myself for upsetting them, then I push them away without noticing. This always happens. It's like I can't catch on to how people make and keep friends. No matter how hard I try, I could never understand. So it feels difficult.
I could constantly tell myself and others that it's okay to make mistakes in life, because I know it's a part of growing and stuff, but every time I make even the smallest mistake, my brain overexaggerates it (?), I start crying and cursing at myself, start literally thinking of suicide, then I'm back to the forums. Sigh. I'm kinda over it. It's been that cycle for a year or so now.