You have a lot on your mind, that is likely why your concentration is lower right now, when things settle you will probably find it improves.

I think the fact you know he has/probably does still read your posts on here and yet you continue to post/have not deleted your profile shows a lot about your openess. Maybe you want him to know what you are really thinking. Maybe he wants to know what you are really thinking.

I don't think it is reasonable to say being on here is not helping you, because you have a lot of stresses going on right now you are not going to be 'okay', that would not be a realistic expectation. This forum may well have got you through some rough spots that he is not aware of.

Does he isolate you (from others) in any other ways?