The same old issue again with my therapist has popped up again- just after our last rupture. I admitted that he was inconsistent before. I was "allowed" to send a message in between sessions, which I would write if I wanted an acknowledgement or not.

Today I failed an exam today scoring 54% instead of the required 70%.
I have two weeks to retake it and pass with the above score otherwise I am officially kicked out of school. I was in a panic and sent therapist the following message:

"R, could I please talk to you today, even if it's for 5 minutes. I really can't wait until tomorrow.Please respond back.I just really don't know what to do, and I'm not trying to test you. I just really need you right now."

Answer: "Message received, S. Be strong. We'll speak tomorrow."

Yes I'm being dramatic and I get that he's trying to maintain boundaries, but I'm walking away right now even though I've paid a month in advance for sessions up until the 24th.

Maybe med school really just isn't for me but I'm officially done with therapy even though, it was the only thing keeping me alive. I get that he's not a suicide hotline, but he just seems so cold and uncaring. He told me to be strong, when I'm weaker than the palest blue and out of my mind. I don't want to turn up tomorrow or even see him again.