(((Lemoncake)))

I'm sorry you didn't pass your test and that he wasn't there for you.

There's a time for supportive therapy; and then there is a time for exploratory or intensive therapy, where a therapist would make things more difficult in the goal of working with the most impactful emotions. Perhaps during a stressful school year, a more supportive therapy could help you get through, but it doesn't seem like your therapist understands. A therapist should consider environmental factors when conducting therapy. There's a time and place for change, and it's probably not during the most stressful period where your success hinges on one test. Maybe you could talk to him about needing more support during this time?

When I quit therapy recently, I was faced with enormous work deadlines. I struggled immensely with hanging in there a couple of weeks or quitting, trying to weigh what would be the least harmful. It turned out quitting was less harmful than staying due to the circumstances. I get strong emotions like you do and so it seems disconnecting from him at least allowed me to shut my mind off from him temporarily. I also took klonopin to get by.

Whether you change your mind and see him or not, I hope you can get to an emotionally level place soon so that you can get through your studying to pass the test. It's so hard.