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Sounds like time to take a break from that research. Maybe you and I should trade, since I'm triggering myself too. I wrote to my T a few weeks ago about not SI-ing for 4 weeks, even including using pins (which I don't necessarily count as SI, since it doesn't do significant damage). Then when I read what I had written a couple of days later, I had to get the pins out again. Well, I don't know how we could trade issues to research - I wasn't even researching, but I understand about triggering yourself in your effort to get better. In the long run, maybe you need to get that stuff processed and it will probably happen sooner or later anyway, and it's a good thing for you to learn about it and understand it. Just try to know when you need to set it aside. And yes, it still sneaks up on you when you least expect it, doesn't it?